Dawn Gone Wild - Dom Sub Devotion Episode 84

At the beginning of this year, Dawn looked at me across the breakfast table and said something that changed everything:

“I’m done.”

There was no drama in it. No collapse. No long explanation.

Just a knowing.

She didn’t mean she was done with us.

She meant she was done trying to bring something into the business that wasn’t true anymore.

She was done showing up in a way that kept her from being the woman she was here to become.

And as her Dominant, I didn’t push back.

I listened. I felt the truth in what she was feeling. 

I made the decision.

And what’s unfolded since that moment has reshaped our entire dynamic in the most profound—and frankly, the most erotic—way we’ve ever known.

For those of you who’ve followed us for a while, you know how central Dawn has been to Infinite Devotion and Dom Sub Devotion. Her voice. Her story. Her laughter. Her willingness to be seen in the rawness of her emotional untangling and her submission.

You’ve watched her unravel.

You’ve heard her learn how to trust.

You’ve felt the intimacy and honesty between us.

And then, for a few months… silence.

She stepped away from the podcast. Stepped out of our coaching containers. Slowly untangled herself from the behind-the-scenes of our business.

And if I’m honest with you, at first, it felt disorienting.

This was our baby.

We built Infinite Devotion together.

We opened our lives and shared our story—not as a performance, but as a practice of living truthfully, even when it was messy.

But the truth is, somewhere along the way, our life and our work got too merged.

We weren’t just living our D/s dynamic… we were performing it.

Talking about it. Analyzing it. Teaching it. Recording it. Coaching on it.

All. The. Time.

And it started pulling us out of the very thing that made this whole thing real in the first place.

Presence. Polarity. Power exchange. Play. Intimacy. Turn on.

We needed to reclaim the life behind the content.

Since she let go, something wild and holy has taken root.

Our dynamic is deeper.

Our sex is filthier.

Her surrender is full.

And my leadership? It had to rise to meet her.

Because here’s the truth:

When a woman stops analyzing and starts submitting…

When she puts her full body, her obedience, her pleasure in your hands…

When she stops performing and starts begging…

You better be ready to lead.

And that’s what I’ve been doing these last four months.

Not from ego. Not from force.

From clarity. Presence. Unshakable vision.

And an edge I’ve sharpened every day by living inside this fire.

So yes—Dawn has been quieter publicly.

But behind the scenes?

She’s gone feral.

Free.

Utterly surrendered.

The monster inside her is awake.

And every time she opens her mouth now, it’s either in laughter… or a moan.

This is what submission looks like when it stops being theory and becomes breath.

Going forward, you’re going to hear more about this side of our dynamic.

The kink.

The ownership.

The power.

The sex.

Not to be provocative. Okay, maybe to be a little provocative. It's frankly kind of exciting to let you all in to this side of our lives. God knows Dawn is excited about revealing more of herself to you.

But even more so, because truth demands it. And for us to continue to be authentic here, we can't keep the most potent parts of our relationship and dynamic tucked away.

For years we led with the emotional. The relational. The deep love.

And all of that is still here.

But we’re done pretending that the bedroom isn’t where it all catches fire.

This is a 24/7 dynamic on a whole new level

Not because of rules or protocol.

But because this is who we are now.

She’s not gone. She’s just becoming.

And I’m here, watching her burn—while I hold the leash.