When Devotion Demands Everything - Christina McBoyle’s Journey Into Love and Surrender - Dom Sub Devotion Episode 83

The Identity Death That True Devotion Demands

What happens when the identity you spent years building —

even an identity in service to love, devotion, and the feminine —

becomes the very thing standing between you and the life you were born to live?

That’s the conversation I had with Christina McBoyle (@solar.feminine.arts) in Episode 83 of the Dom Sub Devotion podcast.

And it’s not the kind of conversation you’ll hear many places.

Christina is someone who has served thousands of women over the years.

A guide into womb-centered living.

A voice of feminine embodiment.

A radiant example of love.

But what she shares in this episode is the kind of truth most leaders avoid speaking aloud:

That to truly live the life her soul desired… she had to let it all go. 

Marriage stripped her.

Motherhood stripped her.

Love stripped her.

Not in a cruel way.

But in the way that only real love can — demanding not her image, not her service, but her self. 

When Christina met her husband Ryan, everything she thought she knew about devotion was put to the test.

Within six weeks, they married.

Within months, she was carrying their child.

And suddenly, all the energy she had poured outward — into clients, into service, into leadership —

was revealed as the very thing that was robbing her marriage, her man, and her soul of what it needed most:

Her full presence.

Her full surrender.

Her full beingness. 

She wasn’t just guiding women into their feminine anymore.

She was being asked to become the teaching — fully, fiercely, vulnerably — with no hiding places left.

This episode is an invitation. 

An invitation to every woman who secretly fears what she might have to give up to be fully claimed.

An invitation to every woman who has found refuge in her work, her image, her survival strategies…

but still aches at night for the love she hasn’t yet allowed herself to fully receive.

It’s also a mirror for every man who wonders why the women he meets can’t seem to surrender —

and who must learn that a woman’s surrender is not a performance she can stage,

but a death she must choose.

Here’s what we explore in this conversation: 

• How work, service, and “purpose” can become subtle forms of self-protection

• Why true union requires a woman to give up the very identity that kept her safe

• The grief, rage, and fear that rise during the feminine descent

• Why no amount of intellectual understanding can substitute for embodied surrender

• How marriage, motherhood, and love strip you to your essence — if you let them

• The subtle seduction of spiritual performance versus the rawness of living truth

If you have ever longed for more —

Not just in theory, not just on a vision board, but in your blood, your bones, your breath —

this conversation will meet you there. 

You will not leave this episode untouched.

You may weep.

You may rage.

You may feel the walls inside you start to crack.

Good.

Because on the other side of that cracking is not your loss —

but your liberation.

🎙️ Listen to Episode 83: When Devotion Demands Everything

https://youtu.be/OSTe8w76kG8